Getting back to the basics

Wow...It's been about three months since Momma went to be with our Lord!!! She's gotten to be with Him for three months!!! How lucky is she??? Since then, it's been interestingly difficult trying to get back to doing the most basic things in my life. I guess I just don't see the point in trying to keep things as they once were anymore. Things in my life have changed; I've changed, so why shouldn't everything else??? I just don't know how to express myself so well anymore... poetry used to be my outlet, but ever since my mother died, I just can't seem to write a good one, or any for that matter!!! I have this writer's block, and it just won't go away.
Recently, someone signed me up for a grief and loss group at our school... without first talking to me. I've gone to the group for the past two weeks, and it's been okay. It meets on Wednesdays. This week, we actually started talking about the loss that each of us had, and those who know me will verify that I loathe crying in front of people. I almost lost it this week while talking about Mom and everything. I don't understand how I can talk about it with people who know me, and force myself not to cry, but with people who don't know me, I almost lose it???
Brittany