Wow

I love good news and I love having supportive friends. I can't imagine my life without you guys anymore. Mom continues to sleep a lot, but she's slowly and surely gaining back her strength. And that's what we want: her strength back. When I graduate, I need my mom to help plan. Yeah, I've already thought about graduating even though I have to get through this group of senior's graduation without crying first (there ain't NO way). I really have to thank you guys. My mom will most definitely be here to see me graduate, get married, have kids, and all those things about growing old.
Maybe you guys don't realize this, but pancreatic cancer has the highest reoccurrance rate. The statistics are all against my mom, but God is pulling her through this. He's holding her close letting her endure this hardship to teach us all to trust Him and let Him show the world his handiworks.
I must say, trusting God is not always the easiest thing for me to do. Why wouldn't it be, you ask. God's put my mom through the most horrific thing I can think of happening to her. I know God is there and that He's keeping my mother safe, but why is He allowing this to happen??? That's where I sometimes have trouble trusting. But God made the universe and yet He cares about ME and MY MOM and our family. How can this be???? "MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD HE REIGNS FROM HEAVEN ABOVE WITH WISDOM, POWER, AND LOVE MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!

So, Mom had a CT scan yesterday, and the results came back today. THEY SAY THERE'S NOTHING THERE!!!!!!!! Gosh, what a relief. I love my mom so much, and it's really not fun to see her so weak or to have to give her a shot every night. Thank you (you know who you are).
Brittany

Not Again..........

Wow, you guys. I got home today, and my mom told me that her doctor is 75% sure that her cancer is back.
Why does God do this to innocent people like my mother???? Honestly, my mom doesnt deserve this at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chemo no more...

So they took my mom off of chemo. for those of you who would think this is good, think again. She was supposed to have 29 weeks altogether, but she's only had 8 weeks. They took her off because of what it was doing to her... slowly killing her. My mother's become so emaciated, and looks very malnouriched. They may resume chemo sometime in the future, but I know that it will just keep doing the same thing to my mom.
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A Blood Transfusion??? for MY mom????

So, Mom's still not home from the hospital. I haven't seen her since Sunday night, but frankly, I don't want to right at this second. We're not fighting, I just can't stand seeing my mom in the hospital. It's not her natural surrounding scene. I am afraid of her coming home possibly tomorrow, though. What if she's lost more hair and it's really noticeable??? I already cried because of that. I hadn't noticed it before because I see my mom everyday. Now that I haven't seen her for almost 5 days, it just may be more noticeable.
Apparently, she had to stay the night again because they had to give her a blood transfusion. The excessive fluid retained some of the nutrients from her body, and so when it was drained, they went with it. So, Mom was a bit shy in nutrients. I guess that blood transfusions are to help out with nutrients????? Well, I definitely hope that she gets to come home healthier than she was when she went down there.
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Two Nights?????????

Mom has to stay another night in the hospital, and I don't quite know what to think about that. I love my mom, but I'm kind of tired of her being sick and of having to take care of her all the time. Apparently she's staying another night because she has what's called a PBC. It's pretty much skipping a beat in the regular heart pattern. I also have that, but I've had it since I can remember. Yeah, I'm defective.
My dad pointed something out to me tonight before he went down to Madison. He says I've become bitter because of all of this. Maybe I have, but how can I stay the same??? My mother is battling cancer, and I've had to grow up really fast within these last 9 months. I'm still an adolescent. I want to do things that are NORMAL for my age. I don't want to have to give my mom shots all the time or to have to rub her back while she pukes. I want my normal life back complete with love and breaking up and laughter. The Bible says that laughter is the best medicine, but whenever my mom laughs, she ends up puking. How's she supposed to get better if she can't laugh too much??? Just answer me that.
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Been a while????

Wow, last week, Mom had to have 2 Liters of fluid drained out of her body. This week, there were 3.2 more Liters that were also drained out. This probably means that there's something wrong with her liver, and you all know that we don't need any thing added onto this. I still can't figure out why God wants me and my family to go through this. I used to think it was to witness to my mom's family, but they don't listen, and if my mom gets worse, who are they gonna take it out on??? probably God.
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