Mom's Struggle

Monday, November 13, 2006

The end of the fight

Momma died this morning around 8:20 am. I just can't understand this. She was too young; I'm too young; Hope's too young. No child as young as Hope should EVER have to watch their mother die or even see their mother go through what mine did. I would never wish this on anyone not even my greatest enemy. I'm so glad that most of you guys came over to see her before she went home. It's good to be able to say your last goodbye. Thank you for doing that. Even though Momma couldn't talk, I know that she was grateful you came. I'm just sorry that my cousin didn't get to say goodbye.
Thank you for your support and love,
~B

4 Comments:

  • At 6:38 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    You truly amaze me! I have been reading your Dad's blog daily and finding true inspiration in it. I have known your Dad all my life, but didn't realize the depth of his faith and ability to show his love through writing. You should be very proud of that and the fact that you too have that gift. Take care, keep posting to your blog and keep the faith. You and your families will continue to be in my prayers.
    Shelli Pint

     
  • At 8:46 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    Hi Brittany
    I just found your blog because of the article in the Baraboo news. I wish I knew about it sooner. I'm so glad for you that you followed your Dad's example in expressing your thoughts and feelings through your blog. Sometimes it's easier to say things in writing than to tell them to someone face to face. Keep up your writing, whether it's in the blog or your own personal journal. It's invaluable therapy. I'm am so sorry that you don't have your mom with you anymore, and all the anguish you have endured over these months. It is horrible to watch a loved one suffering. I know you are grateful for the time you did have with your mom, but that doesn't ease the pain of losing her. Brittany, people are going to say things to you that may sound stupid or are things that you're not ready to hear in the midst of your grief. They are trying to comfort you. They want to say something, but are not sure what to say, or they want to help you feel better. They are well meaning, and I encourage you not to judge them or feel scorne toward them. They are showing you a caring heart even if they don't know how.
    Brittany, I am in awe of the community support I have witnessed second-hand. I have never ever heard of so many people rallying for a family in need. It is not only a testimony of the church and local community, but of the character and outstanding family of the Howards! God is and will continue to minister to your family through many avenues, including your friends and community. You will be taken care of - it is not your "new job" to take care of your family. You still have growing up to do. You are still an important member of your family, the same as your brothers and sister, but your role has not changed. Somehow, God WILL get you through this.
    You are so special, Brittany, and I love you and will continue praying for you.

    Sharon V

    p.s. this is in no way a response about the previous comment about big shoes to fill. This has been on my heart and that comment just happened to be there when I came to write. Your mom was very loving to you and she gave you a wonderful example of a wife and mother and friend. Those are shoes anyone would like to fill!

     
  • At 9:04 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    Brittany,

    We love you. We love your dad, we love Trevor, Vinny and Hope. We will always, ALWAYS be there for all of you in every way, at any time and for anything within our capacity. Please don't forget that.

    Here's a poem I read that my Aunt Dot sent to me (her husband has been struggling with cancer for almost 2 years now, and is close to the end of his earthly journey as well).

    CANCER IS SO LIMITED

    It cannot cripple love
    It cannot shatter hope
    It cannot corrode faith
    It cannot eat away peace
    It cannot destroy confidence
    It cannot kill friendship
    It cannot shut out memories
    It cannot invade the soul
    It cannot reduce eternal life
    It cannot quench the spirit
    It cannot lessen the Power
    of the Resurrection

    God Bless you and your family

     
  • At 7:56 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    Brittany,

    I went to school with you mom and your grandfather went to school with my mother. I want to say how incredibly sorry I am for your loss..I cannot imagaine the loss that you must feel...I remember your mom in school as a very happy...smiling...energetic person...she would light up a room when she walked into it..your Aunt Sara was a year behind me in school...I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you all and may God Bless you and your family.

     

Post a Comment

Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]

<< Home